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SassyVagrant
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PathStep 12 Compassion hearts13 Forum posts6 Forum upvotes9 Current upvotes9 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2020 Member sinceJuly 3, 2020
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Managing my Depression
Depression Support / by SassyVagrant
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 July 7th, 2020
...See more Hey all ... I made the scary step to see a therapist for my anxiety and depression a few months ago. It was a big step for me, and I think I'm starting to move ahead. This journey is bringing to light some uncomfortable truths in my life. My depression was triggered a lot by the feeling that it doesn't really matter if I were to come home or not ... that my life and actions are largely inconsequential. At first, I was thinking that this was just my depression playing with my mind and my perspective on life. But I am realizing that my home life isn't so happy, and I've been looking to my marriage to bring happiness, and it isn't really working. I feel my inpu to our family isn't really valued, and what happens in our home is dictated by my spouse. I don't hear I love you unless I say it first, and I don't get hugs or kisses unless I do it first. I'm managing by doing more outside the house - I get out and exercise. I even went to a yoga class by myself. I also read and meditate more. I'm managing, but life is getting more lonely. I discussed my depression with my spouse and the lack of affection - there is a promise to change, but it always falls back to the same rut. I am now wondering if my marriage issues are the source of my depression - I always thought it was the other way around. Anyway, that turned into a long rambling post there. Hoping this note is relatable to someone. Love to get feedback from the community, as I am struggling with this one.
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