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CosmicGecko222
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PathStep 18 Compassion hearts5 Forum posts2 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2019 Member sinceNovember 22, 2019
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I have Anxiety, Guilt, and Depression because I want a different life than what I have
Anxiety Support / by CosmicGecko222
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 November 23rd, 2019
...See more I have a wife that I love and 3 step children who are almost all grown. My wife also has a Multiple Schlrosis type illness. Our relationship is mostly spiritual and intellectual....we never have sex...that has just never really interested me. I tend to be A-sexual. She, however, has an extremely high sex drive. I have anxiety because I fear she will want to leave me or replace me...we have agreed to an open, polyamorous relationship, which I don't really believe in but allow because I feel it's not right to deny her sexual fulfillment just because I don't want sex. I have guilt because I feel I would be better off on my own working seasonal jobs in National Parks and resorts and thru-hiking the Appaachian, Pacific Crest, and Continental Divide Trails. This conflicts with my anxiety, obviously. And all of this...my whole life situation depresses me to no end....some times I just want to cry uncontrolablly and block the whole world out and forget it exists. I don't know if anything can help or if I can expect anything different than the life I have.
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