I've been clean from self harm for 4 years, but i still struggle every day. Are there ways to keep my mind off it?

You're amazing! Keep looking for new healthy distractions, a variety of different activities, mix up your healthy distractions so your brain doesn't get too comfortable with them. You are doing a wonderful job staying clean for four years and still wanting to go on and be better and better. Some other members might benefit from hearing what you have tried so far. Good luck! Here's a list of healthy distractions you can reference too: https://www.7cups.com/forum/GetSupport_28/ManagingEmotions_47/AnExtensiveListofHealthyDistractionsSelfLoveTechniques_53317/

I've found that writing really helps. While some people I've talked to harm themselves bcos they think they deserve the pain and go in with that thought, I had found that I implicitly thought I deserved the pain. My self harm was more compulsive. I wouldnt really remember even doing it, it would just be a sudden burst of something and before I knew it, it had happened. As I wasnt able to rationalize in the moment, at first I didnt know how to stop it. Writing proved to be really cathartic. I slowly was able to put down why I felt that way and it was like I had opened a door to my emotions. It took some time, yes, but it was the easiest way to do so without being allowed the access of a professional. Understanding why you do something can help you love backwards until you find the root of the problem. While things seem completely senseless in the moment, I've found that when it comes to your mind, you can always find the reason for a thought or an action provided you're willing to hear the truth.

First off, I am so so so so proud of you! That is an amazing accomplishment!!! It takes a huge amount of strength to get where you are right now. That being said, as you're aware, it can be an uphill battle some days, even long after you've detatched yourself from that behaviour. Distractions work wonders to keep you away from your urges. As silly as it might sound, put some music on and clean something! It can be anything, from organizing a drawer, to brushing your teeth. This little positive thing will go a long way. I wish you luck on your mental health journey.