?I have been cutting periodically for two weeks but only like five cuts a day. Today I did too many to count. They never bleed, but it feels good. I never feel much so now I do. But it’s so many.

It sounds like this time you've had something that triggered you more than usual and caused you to cut more than usual. Do you know what that was? It helps if we can understand what is going on with us. If it wasn't a more intense trigger it can also be that you've tried to control things with fewer cuts, but it hasn't worked and that's why you got frustrated and cut more. You don't have to feel it has to be serious enough. I promise you - it is already serious enough. Any self-harm is serious enough. It helps if we can come to a place where we understand ourselves, our triggers, our well-being and how we can cope better. Maybe you can try journaling about it so that you can see the bigger picture of what's going on with you and learn from it? I really hope you will also try some alternatives. Calm Harm is a cool app you can try. I really hope you will soon feel better. And remember - you are allowed to take care of your wounds in whatever way you feel is right. It doesn't have to bleed for you to do some self care like putting on an antiseptic. Even if you can't stop self-harming right away, try anyway to also do some "softer" things for yourself like holding a soft toy or wrapping yourself in a special blanket.

I know that you feel so bad. But you know the cuts won't feel good very soon. It will take more cuts to feel a little bit so until you will feel nothing. Take a slow, deep breath. Feel the gentle breeze or little air movement from the air con. Listen to the surrounding. There are pipes, birds and steps. You want to feel good. You want to feel better. Get up and find someone to talk to. Maybe get a jacket or blanket too. Have some warm water. Take some rest. We can find better ways to feel good.