I harm myself on purpose. I never do it because I need to cope, I do it because I like the pain and like to have something on my body. I know I should stop, but I don't want to. Why is that?

As a person who has gone through a similar situation (I liked the view of blood and the scars/bruises) I understand where those feelings are coming from although I don't understand the feelings themselves. Even if it's physically/aesthetically pleasing, or however one can formulate that, self-harm is never a good idea and the tecnique I can think of id gradual working on avoiding to do it, maybe find something else to replace it (you might develop a less harmful but still toxic tick by accident like chewing nails or peeling off skin). In the end, it's all a process so don't worry if you fall back to self-harm or feel weirdly satisfied with it.

you are accustomed to the feeling. you can try to use a rubber band and snap it on your arm as it will give the same effect as self harm. you may enjoy pain in forms where you can see it, but remember there are other ways. if you ever need help, be sure to reach out to a hotline. these are great ways to help cope with anything going on. you are not alone, there are others just like you out there in the world. what matters the most is your safety and health. be sure to reach out

I have struggled with self-harm many times. I know how hard it can be to stop, and sometimes it is hard to admit that you have a problem. I would recommend going to a therapist and getting serious help. Self-harm isn't something to take lightly. It could lead to a lot worse, and it is a very unhealthy coping mechanism. You could also try telling someone you trust how you feel, it can help to not have to go through it alone. Self-harm can also leave permanent scars, I have many, and they look crazy. Try speaking with a therapist and see what they say, but you may need professional help. You're not alone.

Sometimes punishing yourself is easier than forgiving yourself. It may have to do with something from the past or something you just said. Sometimes I feel I deserve the pain. I don't care about the pity or anger from those around me if they happen to witness and don't understand why I'm turning against myself. It doesn't make me feel better but it feels justified. No matter the way of self harm, it also helps justify your emotional distress when you're not sure why you're struggling. Despite all that, it never stops being terrifying as hell. My experience is on initial levels and while I have felt I should do more, there are also the good days when I'm glad I haven't and scared about what might happen if I let this out of control.

This is a maladaptive coping mechanism, because self-harm is very effective at distracting you from emotional pain quickly, it releases endorphins which make you feel good and it leaves a mark on the body which you can look at later and remember that what you went through was "real", not just you being dramatic. I would strongly suggest getting professional therapy, especially if the self--harm is endangering your health (even if it seems tame now, it can quickly escalate when things get bad in your personal life) This is a conditioned response which CAN be un-learned and replaced with safer/healthier solutions, but it will take time. Self-harm is addictive and you're going to need much support to get through this.

Cutting serves two purposes: it gets you out of your body through dissociation, and it is a way to release extreme anger or sadness. You most likely developed this behavior when you were younger and had to find a way to control your emotions without others noticing. Perhaps it was not safe to express yourself. Perhaps you were ashamed because others taught you it was not okay to be angry. Examine the beliefs you internalized throughout your life that taught you it was not okay to be upset and that you do not deserve to be safe in your body.

The pain could possibly seem like a working coping mechanism for internalized pain. When our minds have a lot going on, we tend to look for things that will take that pain away. Harming oneself may seem to take away the mental pain because it helps drive the focus of the mind elsewhere. The human mind is so complex and there will never be definite answers for the reasons someone copes the way they do because every individual is different. The only hope is that someone is there for us to talk to about the pain so that we may navigate through it rather than taking on the battles alone. Self-harm is easier when one feels alone. Working with a professional is a good idea to explore causes and alternative coping methods.

I hear you! It's really hard to break habits like this. Sometimes, we might not think we're harming ourselves in order to cope, but we might be suppressing feelings that we don't know how to deal with. You might benefit from using fidget toys, drawing on your skin, talking to a professional, journaling or visiting a Self-Harmers Anonymous meeting. You are not alone and you can recover! I encourage you to look into the stressors in your life and other, healthier outlets for your pain/stress, like exercise or therapy. Best of luck and happy healing, friend. You can absolutely do this!

Well if I'm being honest there's no specific reason why you feel this way. Everyone has their own reasons. It could be because you don't know how to, maybe you think it's not that bad, or maybe just because you love this feeling and the mark that it leaves so much and you've done it for so long that you think that there's no need to stop and that you're not doing anything wrong. So you see there could be many different reasons for that. I hope this was of help and I hope you get better. Please reach out to a professional in case you need help and take care.

I think you like to feel control over yourselves and your body and harming yourself could be one way of expressing your control over your body. It might also be because of some physical or sexual abuse in the past. Feeling conscious of your appearance can also be a factor. It is good that you have acknowledged your self-harming behavior. It is a first step to seeking help. It will take some time to stop this behavior. There are lot of ways to feel pain other than harming oneself. You can try other pushing yourself to do strenuous physical activities or other hobbies to distract yourself.