Why do I feel like I go insane when I don't have my journal with me?

You are so used to writing down your thoughts in this journal, and not having it with you bugs you because you know if you wanted to, you couldn't. It has become a coping method for you and it is like your security. You like having it around because it is what you're used to.

i wouldn't be able to realize i'm thinking in a negative way, wouldn't be able to be grateful and stay away from my anxiety.

Having a journal with you can feel like a safety blanket. It provides a safe place for you to channel your thoughts and express yourself freely. It is perfectly natural to crave that release.

A journal definitely helps to record your thoughts and keep everything in order. If you rely on that journal, it's not surprising that you'd be upset without it!

I feel the same way when I am having a bad day I just need my journal. I feel as it helps take away some of what you are dealing with off your shoulders and you can feel set free from what is making you feel overwhelmed or have a bad day.

Maybe because you're attached with your journal and you prefer to keep it with you all the time. It's fine to have something so close to you, until it creates some serious trouble.

It depends on if you rely on your journal to output or input thoughts. When you don't have it, it may feel like you have a lot going on and no other way to vent your thoughts or feelings. It may also sometimes help to be able to go back and read things in your journal, either to help you feel better emotionally or to help you remember things. Regardless, it seems like you rely on your journal a lot, and while this can help a lot with tumultuousness within the head and heart, it can make you dependent on it.

because your journal it allows you to let everything out without having to explode whenever you journal isn't with you at least make sure you have a piece of paper and than you can transfer it into your journal later on

Perhaps maybe you're used to writing down your feelings, which isn't a bad thing at all. In fact, most people find it comforting to write down their feelings instead of saying it out loud. However, sometimes we have to get used to verbalizing what we really feel so that the people around us will also understand what we're going through.

If you feel overwhelmed and you usually journal when you don't feel well and you don't have it, and you can't journal how you're feeling could be a reason. Like for me, if I don't have a stress ball with me or when I used to journal all day everyday and I didn't have that with me to help feel a little better or to calm down etc. I would go real crazy and my urges would go up.