why do I always feel embarassed to cry in front of people?

Perhaps it is because you have not experienced being open with your emotions before. Some people I know get embarrassed when crying in me because it makes them feel vulnerable and weak or they don't like the attention that it draws to them.

It is natural to cry and show emotions, some do feel embarrassed about it. You are allowed to show feelings because your Human and it’s Natural to react that way. If you don’t it will hurt you Physically. Normally after a good cry you actually feel better and can get perspective. If it bothers someone else that is their problem. We can’t please others to hurt ourselves. This is your life and feelings if someone else doesn’t like it they can keep on going about their business. Life is to short to keep your feelings bottled up.

I guess it is just so that people don't think I am that weak and fragile person that they think. I want to let them know that I am so much more. That I am not only brave but also compassionate, that I can help people when they need it but also kick someones's butt if necessary. That I am so much more than just a simple girl.

I feel pressured to fit into the stereotype of "Manly Men". I left that idea of thinking and moved on into the things that made me different, not the same.

Personally, I would say it would depend on the way you present yourself in front of people. If you are the strong friend -the mom of the group or the counsellor of the group or you just present yourself as a very mature person- we find it hard to cry in front of people because it spoils the image we have created for ourselves. We don't want them to think we are weak or that they can't express themselves to us because we have our own troubles. That isn't true. Crying is not a sign of weakness and you shouldn't be embarrassed because what you are feeling is valid. You have been strong so long, sometimes you have to lift the pressure off of your own shoulders.

because society makes us think its not ok to show our true feelings or have opinions but i understand

Crying is an extremely vulnerable thing to do, even on your own and so naturally you will feel embarrassed to show yourself this open and this vulnerable. It is important to take care of yourself when you are feeling like this and one way a lot of people feel better is to be with others. Although this may seem embarrassing and daunting, take reassurance in knowing that everyone cries! And know that you will feel so much better having cried with someone that you will forget you ever felt embarrassed to begin with. Take care of yourself and do what is best for you