Why do I want bad things to happen to me?

I blame myself for every bad thing that happens around me. To wish for bad things to happen is kind of a punishment for all the hassle I think I created. There's this feeling inside of me which represents my thoughts that good will never happen to me, I believe it never had and never will. When bad things happen it feels like it is real, my life is smooth and it's going as it should be, good things leads me to a fantasy world where I think every aspect of life and sunshine and butterflies. But of course nothing lasts for long, and life plays a joke on you throwing you to the ground from the highest cliff you reached, back to nothing. I want bad things to happen to save myself from the heartbreak that will be followed by a nightmare after a bright life.

Sometimes, wanting bad things to happen to us can be a form of self punishment. If we feel like we made a mistake, did something wrong, or aren't good enough, a lot of the time we believe that if something bad happens to us will punish us for the thing we think we did wrong. We feel like we deserve the negative emotion, like we deserve pain that gets inflicted upon us when something bad happens to us. When we feel like this, thinking about what we will gain from something bad happening can be helpful. Will there be any positive outcomes from something bad happening to us? How will something bad happening fix the problem?

Maybe you are feeling bad about an event in your life that you feel punishment is needed? Try to think of the issue at hand and think if it was resolved or left in the air and try to turn a new page.

It sounds like you are experiencing a stressful moment in your life. Your mind is probably full of bad thoughts about yourself, but I want you to know that you are WORTHY. You are really important, and I don't want you to ever forget that.

I like to think that life is like a rainbow. You can need a little bit of rain to make something beautiful. Sometimes we feel like the world is falling apart but there's always going to be a better day that you need to look forward to. Bad days make us appreciate good days which is something that you should look forward to. Life is all about balance and you can't have it all good without a little bit of bad.

A lot of us deal with some form of guilt. Sometimes even in an indirect form, like guilt for not living up to perceived expectations. This is often the root cause for wanting bad things to happen to us, because we believe we deserved to be punished

I want bad things to happen to me because I want to grow and become a better person through the lesson the world was teaching me. I like to think of humans as muscles, if you want to become stronger, you have to rip and tear a little to regrow stronger and better,

Some people feel that way because they're lonely and want someone to pay attention to them and help them, or they may feel guilty and that they deserve punishment. Talking to people about these thoughts can help a lot and they are nothing to be ashamed of.

Your mindset could be fixated on the fact that you don't deserve happiness, this could be linked to depression. You also probably feel that you deserve things to happen badly to you.

I feel the same way. For me, it's partly because other people deal with those things and I don't feel the proper empathy for them so I just get really upset and wish those things would happen to me. I also want anything that would be bad for me because it's a self-destructive thing.