Why do I want bad things to happen to me?

I wanted bad things to happen to me because I felt bad for the people who had it worse than me, I just wanted to feel how the other people in the world were feeling I guess.

When want bad things to happen to you it becomes a connection to others. The loneliness in today's world of technology has created a void within humanity. Regular people in our society aren't noticed. Usually most unnoticed humans are comfortable not having the spotlight because they have a family/friends that are involved in their lives. We are pack animals and if isolated we desire attention. When you realize that it is not that you want bad things to happen, it is just that you require attention to create meaning in life. People come together in a crisis.

Maybe because you feel like you deserve it? Or maybe you feel like your life is boring and nothing interesting ever happens?

Interesting... There are some reasons for that. But first, I wonder what do you get from having bad things in your life? Second, when was the last time a good thing happened to you? How did you react? A lot of time we want bad things to happen to us since we are used to the bad things (probably we experienced bad things repeatedly as we grow up). So when bad things did not happen, we tend to seek it, since we don't know how to respond / live without them. It is the challenge, though, to learn to live and find meaning beside the bad things that happen.

Maybe you're too scared to do bad things to yourself, so you wish them upon you. I really hope things get better for you, whatever is going on.

Wanting bad things to happen to you is something I experience daily. It sometimes plagues my mind as I end up fantasizing about all the bad things that could happen at any given moment. This is something that I believe ties into a guilt complex or low self esteem. Having low self esteem can cause people to think they aren't worth anything, and having a guilt complex causes them to believe events are their fault when they aren't. This can in turn result in these types of thoughts.

When it comes to me, I felt like this a lot in my depressed state! I used to feel like this, like someone beating me up or firing at me continuously, and me doing nothing but just lying there and taking those beatings! It was that part of my life when I gave up, when I decided that I wouldn't fight my situations and give up!

It depends on the person - sometimes it is a way of subconsciously punishing yourself because you think you deserve the bad things. Other times people are tired of being ignored and not cared about and they're just so tired they want the attention. And I'm not saying attention like it's a bad thing because it happens to me too - I'm tired of being alone and ignored. Sometimes attention isn't a bad thing because everybody needs to be cared for.

I know what it's like to want bad things to happen to you. It can be confusing. You know it's not good to want bad things to happen, but you also crave it. For myself, I was craving the love and attention that came with those bad things. I wanted the pain I was feeling to be validated, and I wanted people to see it. I can't say if this is your experience, but if it is, you can get through this. You won't always feel that ache in your chest and crave bad things to happen to you. It's good that you're asking why, because then you can work to heal yourself. Wishing you all the best.

There's no singular answer to this question. Of course, why you want bad things to happen to you, could depend on various circumstances. It is quite unclear in your question exactly how you feel. However, I could give you a few possible reasons which hopefully can give you an idea. Having suicidal ideation could play a major part in believing that you deserve something disastrous to happen to you. However, just wanting bad things to happen to you doesn't make you suicidal. There are multiple other symptoms that ultimately help identify a suicidal individual. It's better to be diagnosed first. Nevertheless, this strong desire could be an underlying symptom of suicidal tendencies. I can sense that you're sincerely suffering and a big part of your focus seems to wishing yourself harm. It is psychologically unhealthy to wish such occurrences for yourself. I would recommend seeing both a therapist and psychiatrist since therapist could help you examine why you are having thoughts of self-harm whereas a psychiatrist could prescribe you medicine to help decrease your unwanted thoughts. I am in no way a licensed therapist, but I've noticed that individuals with anxiety disorders often describe having these intrusive thoughts. You might want to get diagnosed so you can take necessary steps for proper treatment. People with schizophrenia often describe having similar thoughts. The voices in their head are quite intrusive and intent on self-harm. Lastly, I want to remind you that I'm not a trained therapist. These are just mere suggestions to assist you understand your situation better. I would suggest seeing a therapist so you can get professional help and generally, a therapist can refer you to a psychiatrist. Hopefully, this brief discussion helped you identify the issue clearly! ~Zahra💕