Why can't I stop the wanting of throwing up my food?

Because it's a habit, eventually it becomes normal and a way of life. The feeling and knowledge of food being digested is tough at first after being used to throwing up but to overcome this takes great strength. Focus on getting healthy, on a more 'normal' eating pattern and habits make this your new routine.

This act has become the norm for you - it's almost a ritual. So it feels unnatural to Not throw up food. You need yourself to get used to eating again, try eating regular small meals that are easy to swallow and soft.

I've struggled with this as well. At first, it was because I felt fat and I was so worried about gaining more weight that the thought of keeping food in my body disgusted me, Eventually, though, I think it simply became habit to feel that way. The way I got past is was to simply keep eating and it finally went away as I also learned to cope with my feelings of self doubt. Best of luck to you! Feel free to message me if you wish.

You may be struggling with bulimia. It's mostly common in young teenage girls but anyone can suffer from it.

Its an addictive thing to get into, as once you've done it once you will want to do it over and over again because you feel like its affective but in reality its ruining your throat.

Quite possible that you are over conscious about gaining weight. It's important to go and diagnose the cause for uncontrollable vomiting. Anxiety disorders, depression and eating disorders like Bulimia nervosa etc are associated with the same. Other reasons could be gastric infection due to contaminated food/water etc.

How long have you been feeling this way? Can you tell me more about how you have been feeling outside of that?

Being used to throwing up food makes the body want it, almost like a reflex. In the case of that occurring, take a few moments to relax and evaluate why you want to throw up your food. If harmful thoughts to your own person occur, counter the harmful thoughts by telling as you would a good friend in the same situation. You will fail many times, but in time the urge will become weaker until it wanes completely.

If you have been throwing up food consistently, you should seek medical attention. It could be for something as simple as food poisoning that may need to runs its course but it could be something more. Please reach out and get help!

Too much worrying about the wrong things. One should focus about their inner beauty rather than outer beauty. If vanity is not the issue then one should release the idea that they can control everything. It seems letting go is the ultimate way to get control over yourself.