Why is my first thought each morning, how much I hate myself?

The thought might not even be coming from you, it could be what others are constantly feeding you. When it does occur look at yourself in a new light a positive light, imagine you’re someone you don’t hate and channel what being loved by you would feel like. Is that love warm? Is that love forgiving? Hopefully it’s both and many more benevolent things. Feel your love!💗 It’s special and whoever gets the honor to experience it should cherish it. So cherish it how anybody else receiving it should. It takes baby steps but one small step is better than none at all.

Sometimes we can focus on our flaws instead of the things that we find beautiful or that we are grateful for. While you may not think that you’re beautiful, many others will. Everyone has a different type of person they enjoy interacting with or admiring. I can assure you that your flaws is what makes you so wondrously unique and also will be what someone loves about you the most. Try and focus on what makes you love life. It may be music or it may be sunsets! Either way, it will let you find beauty in unconventional things. You’re just as amazing as the sunsets.

I am bless and thankful to god cause still give chance to live in this world. really looking forward for exciting and awesome life. i never hate myself.

You may be thinking negatively at bedtime so before you sleep write down things you like about yourself

It sounds like you are really struggling. I know it's hard. But don't stop fighting. You are not alone!

You worry too much about how you are. You don't have to be perfect. You hate parts of you that isn't worth hating.

Every question that starts with "Why?" is very hard to be answered. We can't know all the reasons, but one of them could be that you haven't learnt to love yourself. But there is your chance to start learning it now.

You are being too hard on yourself. You first need to forgive yourself assuming there is even something to forgive in the first place. Realize that you are on this journey we learn from our hardships and weaknesses.

Hating yourself can become a habit that you carry with you constantly. This can be a thought you overcome as you practice loving yourself, and learning how to change the pattern of your thoughts. I used to have the same thought each morning until I decided that I wanted to like me for a change, and started doing small things that improved my overall self esteem. I put positive notes all over my room and bathroom to remind me why I should love myself. I even had a small notebook and everyday I would write something new that I liked about myself, even if it was "I love that I enjoy croissants" Just so I could read over things I liked about me. Any negative thought and I had to wash it out with a positive one. You think about hating yourself first thing in the morning because that's all your mind thinks to do when it comes to yourself.

I've lived most of my life with a parent telling me I couldn't do anything right, at some point I started believing it. It's not necessarily my first thought every day, but it does pop up at some point every day. Because of growing up in such a negative environment I've gotten into the habit of thinking negatively and ultimately sabotaging myself, confirming that I can't do anything right. I've often wanted to hate my parents for doing what they did, but I always go back to hating myself instead. No matter how much others tell me I'm doing well I just don't feel it