What should I do if I am feeling suicidal, but don't want to tell anyone?

You need to speak out. I understand it can be difficult to talk to people in your environment, but luckily there are always more anonymous alternatives, usually online. Speak to a 7 cups therapist or call a helpline! Many schools also have psychologists nowadays that are subject to confidentiality rules, but that can get you access to the help you need. There are a lot of options, and although choosing them might seem daunting, it might save your life.

Contacting a specialised hotline could help you if you felt you couldn't talk to a loved one or a friend.

You should think on everything you've done right, and everything you can do right in the future by keeping trying and being yourself.

You should definitely seek professional help be it anonymously or not. It's important to put your safety first. It's also really important to realise your value and how worthy of life you are. Don't let life get you down, keep your esteem up, eat well, sleep well and try hard (even if it means failure), keep your chin up and keep going.

Try and engage in support online. Try talking to therapist on 7 Cups. It is important to make sure that you are safe, so it is always a good choice to talk to someone in your life you trust. Have a look at help pages and see if you can try and apply them in your life.

It is understandable that you don't want to tell anyone but talking through your problems with other people is one of the best ways to address them. I have learned through personal experience that to fix a problem regarding your emotions, you need to make sure you fully understand your emotions which can be quite hard to do, Through talking to people I trust about my problems, I have been better able to address them myself. Remember that the person you talk to doesn't necessarily have to be a councilor, just someone you trust such as a friend or parent. To deal with your suicidal thoughts you need to fully understand why you are feeling suicidal and to do that you must talk to someone even though it will be hard at first.

When I feel suicidal and don't want to tell anyone, I should sort out my problems first. Then after I see what my problem is, I can find ways that I can solve it.

I know this isn't a usual suggestion, but.. look at your childhood photos. Look at you when you were a baby, a small kid running around. Do you want to kill that innocent child? Look at how much you've grown. Look at your family. Look at you. Don't do that to yourself.

It's important you reach out in whatever way you can at this difficult time. Sometimes it's more difficult to reach out to friends or loved ones but there are numbers you can call and talk to someone anonymously if that is easier. If it is hard to talk or you can't find the words perhaps you could text or email or even write down how much you are struggling and show your doctor. Seeking help from a qualified therapist can also help a lot to work through your feelings. If you absolutely cannot tell anyone or reach out for help there are self help books you might try, looking into how you might be able to show yourself self compassion and forgiveness may also help, as may simple things like meditation, mindfulness and going for a walk. I would urge you to seek help as soon as you are able, there are people who can help and who understand.

For me, it got worse when I didn't tell anyone about how I felt; I would begin to hate myself even more, and I would keep it all in. We should not hate ourselves, but unfortunately and truthfully, we do. I didn't want to tell my parents because they were part of the reason I felt the way you did and second, I thought they would put it aside as a joke or be concerned enough that they would think of me differently. One day, I told my closest friend that I was feeling suicidal, and she was surprised because I never showed any signs of depression or suicidal thoughts to her before. She did not push me or try to get information out of me or tell other people; she listened, and she heard what I had to say. I'm glad that there was someone like her who could listen to me like that: quiet yet attentive. If you feel that there are not people near you who are able to do that, who would talk over you, then I'm grateful you came to this website because the listeners are here to, well I guess, listen. So if you need someone to talk to and you aren't ready to tell anyone close to you, then I would suggest maybe first talking ot a listener here. I wish you luck.