What does depression feel like?

It's very difficult. I have both depression and anxiety and it's not only hard on me, but anybody who I am around.

Depression is often referred to as a feeling of overwhelming sadness, and anxiety is referred to as a feeling of overwhelming fear. These descriptors aren't always accurate, however. Depression has many symptoms including numbness and lethargy, which can make it hard to feel any emotions at all, including sadness. Depression can also make someone lose their appetite, lose interest in activities they once enjoyed, and feel incredibly frustrated with themselves. Anxiety also has physical symptoms, including sweating and shortness of breath. People with anxiety may overthink even simple tasks, be overwhelmed by perfectionism, or feel inadequate. They may also develop fears of being judged by the people around them, even if there is no rational reason for doing so.

It's a feeling of isolation, discomfort and in some cases fatigue. Both have their own symptoms: depression is more personal, feeling like you don't matter or you're doing something wrong, even if you're not. Anxiety, on the other hand, is excessive self-awareness and being afraid of judgement, in addition to many more things.

For me anxiety led to depression, and they're feeding on each other. I get anxious over the most irrational things, thing unworthy of anxiety. I think this thought, and my rational brain tells me it's nothing to be anxious about. I try to figure out why I feel like I'm suffocating, and why I have this heavy weight on my heart, for something that is unworthy. Then I cant make sense of it, I get frustrated with myself, because I cant figure out why I feel this way. I then just leave the feeling to dwell inside me, and I continue to feel suffocated, and as if my heart is carrying a 100 kilogram weight around. Eventually, my mind goes blank, I simply stop thinking. I realise I'm not thinking then I try to figure things out from the beginning, and the circle begins again. I then usually decide to talk to my love, and since my anxiety affect my thoughts about my relationship with him, I start to get anxious about whether I'm driving him away with my irrational fears. Then I decide I'm not going to talk to him about it, because I don't want to hurt him. The thing is, he is the only one I have left to talk to, I have nobody else. I have no energy socializing. I start to get depressed and wonder: "What is wrong with me?." I am 16, I am exhausted, I can't talk to people because I'm exhausted. I think one thought, and my mind spirals. I don't know how to help myself, thus I become depressed. I want to have energy and enjoy my youth, instead I sit in physics and repeat to myself: "Breathe, breathe, it will be okay, just breathe." If it wasn't for my love who sat through all of this with my, I would've lost myself completely.

Believe me, it's hard. No one ever takes it seriously. No one understands. Even my parents and friends don't understand. People mistake you for so many things that you're not. It's hard. It's just really hard.

It feels like you can't breathe in a room full of people, because someone might stare at you fi you make the tiniest noise. You feel like everyone is always talking about you, even though they usually aren't. Depression is different for everyone, as is anxiety, but for me depression is the feeling of being utterly alone no matter what you do. Silently crying for help but no one cares. My anxiety is like the feeling you get when you begin the swift descent from the highest point of a roller coaster, and your body can't keep up.

Hard. Depression isn't caring about anything, and anxiety is caring too much about everything, so the two conflict a lot and it's hard to keep them in check. You'll skip a bunch of stuff, or neglect to do things like schoolwork or chores, and then a couple hours later, your anxiety will freak out, thinking of all the bad things that could happen because of the stuff you skipped.

It's knowing you have so many things to do and stressing over them but being physically and emotionally unable to get out of bed. So you sit there, heart thumping quickly thinking about those responsibilities but feeling like there's so many reasons why getting out of bed is bad or useless. You feel so useless and don't feel like you have a reason to live, and you're constantly torn between worrying about life and dreading life

Living with depression and anxiety is hard to do. I have dealt with it for the past two years. You feel hopeless and worthless like no one is there for you. You feel like you are in a dark world where no one understands you. Never forget that there is always someone there for you to talk to. We all have a purpose.