Why was I both the bully and the bullied?

Bullying might have led you to bully. There is a strong positive correlation between those who were bullied and those who bully.

With today's society sometimes kids are the bully without even noticing it. Do your bully may not have even noticed he/she was hurting you.

I was always bullied for my looks. Because of this, I felt insecure, making me seem like prey. Vulnerable prey. My only way to cope was to belittle others. Pick on other kids. Soon, I realized this isn't right. They hadn't done anything to me... So what if I was bullied? So what if I'm "ugly"? That's an opinion, not a fact. These people could hurt me, but hurting others doesn't make me a better person than them. I decided to treat others with kindness after that...

Without knowing your entire situation it is impossible to say, only you can determine what happened. Here are a few things to consider regarding bullying. Bullies often target people who they feel are weaker than themselves, and are not likely to defend themselves or fight back (either physically or verbally). When the bully chooses a victim they get a sense of power and control over the other person. Quite often when a person bullies someone else, they too are a victim or some form of bullying in their life. It could be at home (parental neglect, abuse, being picked on by a sibling, etc.). Having that power over someone else gives the bully a sense of control, something that they likely feel they are missing in another area.

You can be both either you got hurt from an experience from a bully and than you feel bad for it so to feel better you target it upon other people when you get an advantage.