I was the one on the wrong... We parted ways nine months ago... Tried all I could but he recently told me to forget him for good. Am depressed. Suicidal thoughts are killing me. Please help?

Firstly, you must seek help from a professional as soon as possible if you are having suicidal thoughts. U might have heard that statement a million times and it probably annoys you but it's necessary that you seek professional help. Now talking about the actual problem of course i wouldn't be able to solve your problem but I can try and give you a little insight..if he left that means he doesn't want the relationship and it's always better stay with people who love us than whom we love sounds cliché but true. You aren't together for a reason. It did not work for a reason. Acceptance plays a quite important role in the process of healing. I know it's easy said than done but trying to heal doesn't hurt and it's never too late. If this helps even to the slightest amount I'm glad.