What does being bipolar feel like?

I was diagnosed with bipolar when I was 15 years old. Bipolar feels like a rollercoaster of feelings. One day you'll have so much energy and you can feel like you can take on the world, Colors seem brighter and everything around you is beautiful and amazing. Then the next you may feel like the world is falling down around you and you can't physically get out of bed. Colors seem dull and life almost seems pointless. The emotions you have are always on the extreme and it can feel like you're crazy because the people around you don't understand why you are so happy or so depressed. They don't always understand that we can't control our good and bad days and we try the best we can.

It's kind of annoying, honestly. One minute you're content with your life, and then you just hate it the next without any provocation. Sometimes it zones with anger issues. It's a bit difficult to keep it in check.

Being bipolar feels like being pulled into all these different directions, when you just want to stay in one place. It's feels as if there's all these different people pulling your strings, making you happy, or angry, or feel like you aren't enough.

Being bipolar is a really strange feeling; one day you're on top of the world, internally indestructible and nothing can get you down-the next day is the complete opposite. Sometimes I feel as though I can actually feel the shift in my mood take place, and it makes it hard to socialize with people considering that many don't realize I have BP, based upon the social stigma that goes with it. Despite it being called BP, I personally prefer the old-school term "manic depressive", I honestly think it has less of that stigma since less people have heard it coined that way.

It feels like going to the beach. You walk up and the sands burns you; thats waking up out of a dead depression sleep. Its sunny; you feel the sunshine and maybe your nervous the day wont go you way but you go to water anyway. Then your in the water, your emotions are like waves, sometimes they are so low to your knees you dont mind them. You even feel so in control that you are impervious to pain. Then the tide comes in and your at your neck. Somehow your loosing control, the sky gets dark as you panic. You feel you cant breathe and the salt tears your eyes. Lighting crashes and its like rage that your in this mess. You start to wonder if its best to stop fighting. You fight your way back to the shore and lay on the beach as it rains. Your depressed; you want to give up. Then the sun comes out and the day starts again. At least thats the closest example I can give.

It's not like being happy 2 seconds then sad/angry the next few minutes,it is like you are feeling alright for a good amount of time then you don't even realize when you -accidentally- thrown that plate to the floor. Good thing it was made of plastic...

It feels like you are going to rip someones head off. And or it feels like your going to explode at any moment.

It feels like I have too minds that don't always agree with each other. It feels like sometimes, I wanna say something, but I know I shouldn't, but I do anyway. It feels like I'm always debating and fighting with myself, when I'm not busy arguing with others. It feels like a weight that I'm aware of, but can't really talk about, because nobody understands what I'm saying. It feels like I'm an outcast and nobody believes in me or my goals. It feels like I'm in a battle and I don't get a lot of rest.

I dont think there is an average description for being bipolar that fits everybody. But mostly, its a constant battle. You never really understand why you are sad but you keep being sad, and once you are happy, the happiness reaches new heights. There is no middle ground. And half the time, your emotions are all over the place. Its just a like a switch. You are depressed and you are ecstatic. And you never know why. Its like rolling down a grassy hill, you are giddy with joy until you are dizzy with pain. That is why being bipolar is often just discarded as regular mood swings or temper tantrums. They are difficult to understand or explain.

A person who has bipolar experiences extreme emotions. From ecstasy to depression, each emotion you feel is more intense than what a normal person would feel. But that doesn't mean you're a freak or weird or abnormal. It's just that you feel everything with an intensity that others might not. You might have your mood swings or constant change in your emotions, but just remember it's not your fault, don't let anyone make you feel guilty just because they don't understand what it feels like to have bipolar