Why do I forgive my boyfriend for cheating on me. Its almost like where I'm just hoping and praying he gets it out of his system and one day it will change. I know its a horrible way to live?

Because there's still a hint of hope and love inside of you. You still hold on to this idea that he'll change and yet you just end up making a fool of yourself. I

Well one question you can ask yourself is that are you dependent on him for anything? Sometimes it can be really difficult for people to come out of their comfort zones even if they are knowingly sabotaging their self respect. You also have to understand if this is a habit and he knows he is going to get away with it. Has it happended once, twice, more than that? Do you feel you will not find someone again? DO you think you need validation? There are a lot of things that need to be explored to answer the question. Let me know if you want to chat.

It's either you don't want to lose them, or you are in denial. However, you deserve someone that will respect you and know your worth, not hurt you for 5mins of pleasure. I know it's hard but you first have to start respecting yourself, because when you do- you will find someone that will love you the way you love yourself. It's not abnormal to go back to someone that has cheated on you because we instinctively want to believe that people change, but that is disrespectful to ourselves and you deserve better- someone that will respect you and cherish you.