Why do I always self sabotage and ignore my emotions?

That's a question only you can answer... there could be many contributing factors as to why you do these things. I must suggest that if you are self mutilating that you seek out professional help. Therapy can be extremely beneficial.

Ignoring your emotion is like ignoring your hungry stomach. How can you ignore when you are hungry ? When you find something more important than the hungriness. For example, an exciting game. Similarly, how to ignore a pain of previous failure? Find some other challenge.

Sometimes dealing with your emotions can be difficult and exhausting. Some people may feel that they don't have time to deal with their feelings, where others may see their emotions as a huge mountain they don't want to climb. Dealing with your personal stuff can be difficult, but stuffing your feelings down won't help you out in the long run. That's why I'm thankful for technology and websites such as this to help people express their emotions from the comfort of their own home.

We do it maybe because we think our emotions are wrong and we should be feeling a certain way. We might ignore our emotions so we can focus on something we might think is more important.

This may suggest self-hatred, you may feel that you don't deserve good things and that you're not allowed to feel emotions.

Maybe you think that they are not like how you think you should feel about the situation you are facing and that might be a really big problem afterwards. You should let your emotions be free, because that's the only way to express yourself truly.

Because I don't realize I'm hurting myself. I never registered or processed emotions intelligently to know what if I was telling my self the right information about what I was feeling. Everything I processed was based off thoughts not feelings. So self sabotage is inevitable if all one listens to is their head. It will create self doubted thoughts that bring up feelings that have never been registered or dealt with. Now, when I bring up a self doubting thought, it will release that feeling and before I know it I'm overwhelmed in heavy emotions and self sabotage. It's easy to define it, looking from the outside, but in the moment it's like moving mountains to overcome.

Maybe there were/are people that you cared about that mentioned that you needed to ignore them to be strong. Or it is just a wall you put up so that you don't get hurt.

Maybe you do this because others have done the same to you and now you feel like your emotions are not as valuable as theirs.

Maybe you are trying to reach out for help but don't know how to get someone's attention effectively. I have found the best way to ask for help is to just ask. No question is too big or too small. If the person you are asking does not want to help, please don't be offended. Try and find someone who is genuinely interested in helping you and pour your heart out to them. You are more likely to get effective, validating responses from people like this rather than somone who is only really there for their own needs or wants.