When the time of my ex - boyfriend's death date comes around, I can't function. I fall into a deep depression. I won't eat or talk to anyone. How do I push myself through his death date?

Although it might sound like just a wordplay, consider trying to see it as "carrying you" through the death date/days rather than "pushing yourself". The strong feelings and love you have had and continue to have for the person seem to be eager to make themselves felt during this time. It seems like your heart/mind/body really wants to let you acknowledge/accept/embrace those strong feelings. Acknowledging/accepting/embracing the deep feelings might help you not be negatively affected and maybe even positively motivated. Because, you would be seeing and experiencing your ability to feel deeply and love deeply. And with your intense remembrance, you are honoring all the love you shared with the person. I apologize if anything or everything I said above makes you feel uncomfortable. You don't have to listen to me if it's not being helpful. I really am hoping for you to feel better.

I'm very sorry about your loss. I've been through something similar, it is indeed very hard to cope on these dates. Personally, I try to limit the amount of expectations or responsibilities on myself so I can grieve more comfortably (for example, finishing work in advance, delaying appointments because you know you might not be able to do much on the anniversary). It's okay that you can't function, or you don't wanna do anything else but to relive the memories with him. Just try to keep some food and water nearby so you don't get too exhausted. And if you have work to do, you can distract yourself with music, mindfulness, or talk to someone close to avoid meltdowns. I hope this helps a bit. Best of luck to you.

Hey! I am so sorry that you have experienced the death of someone close to you! I won't ever know exactly how you feel, but I would recommend reaching out to friends a couple of weeks before his death and let them know what's happening. If you feel comfortable, you could ask some of them to stay with you the day of, the day before and the day after (longer if that's what you need). They can remind you that you need to eat, that you need to sleep. When I lost someone lose to me, having a support system was so important, because I also became very depressed. Also, another thing that I did was create "happy habits" around my person's death date. It could be doing something that they liked to do, visiting their grave/memorial site, and anything else that would remind you of the positive memories of the person. You are so strong and brave for asking for help about this, and I want to let you know that things will get better. You can do this!