Why do I feel majority of my anxiety issues at night when I get home from my parents or friends? Does anyone else feel like this?

Absolutely. When we try to go to sleep, our mind needs to quiet down and not focus on anything in order to calm down and sleep. Sometimes that is the only time of day when we do not focus on making it through the day despite our anxiety, because during the day we need to pull through and function. So when the time comes to wind down, that's when so much anxiety can come up to the surface and start bubbling. It's a time of day when we are mostly alone and quietly in our own heads. Repressed emotions always find their way out at some point or another. This is quite difficult to deal with. I have found that mindfulness meditation can help before bed, especially if I have been consistently practicing.

My anxiety comes from things I cannot control. In the safety of my home, I am allowed to revisit and then she comes anxiety. I try to figure out if I can do something to help. My mind summersaults into action and I cannot stop thinking, my heart beats faster, my eyes twitch, my blood pressure rises, and in no time I am having an anxiety attack full-blown. Now what? I sit quietly in the silence and breathe. I breathe in and out for as long as it takes for my heart to stop racing, my mind to slow down, and little by little without taking anything I find my peace again. I think this is normal.

I often find that anxiety hits the hardest once I’m back at home behind closed doors. The quietest room is often the scariest. I think it’s because I use all of my energy soldiering on through my day. It’s the fight of my fight or flight response that allows me to keep pushing on without being bogged down with anxiety. But once that adrenaline fizzles out, the anxious thoughts begging to seep back in. The post-match analysis begins and you get anxious about what you’ve said and done over the course of the day and what’s to come in the future. Plus, I don’t know if this is the same with you, but I try my hardest to conceal my anxiety from my loved ones. I want them to think I’m okay so they don’t worry about me. But when I’m alone I let my mask slip and it all comes back.