I HATE My Period

I HATE my period with a passion

I deel with deblitating persiods where I sometimes black out in pain

I've spooken to countless docters about it 

From my perdatirsion to an OBGYN to a family medison doctor

I have tried everyone and no one wants to figure out what is going on

Let me start by saying I absoultly love my doctors and outside of this have had a great experiance with them and honistly they are probaly some of the best doctors one can have and I know I'm privalged to have them, there are countless times where they went above and beyond for me or my my family 

With that being said

I have been trying to figure out why im in deblitating pain and how to stop it for over 10 years

The first few years I was adimint about finding the cause and soultion but after hearing the same thing and feeling like no one is investigating I gave up, now a few years later not only am I in deblitating pain but my emotions are so off the way I cant even keep up with them

Here was how the first years of me wanting answers went:

I tell them I have deblitating period pain and it makes me miss school and life and I dont want BC

They tell me its cus im young and my persiod will stablise and be more normal then perscribe me BC

If they had asked me more questions they would know that I got my period very young and have had it for 8+ years by the time I went serching for answers 

They dont do any exams, they dont do blood work , they dont do anything

Went to an OBGYN and told her the same thing and asked if I can get the thing that stops my period

I was in the waiting room longer then I was with her and she just said no

Still no questions, no exams, no blood work, nothing

They tell me take pain kills but I have other things I take pain killers for and I am a scared that in the long run my kidy or liver (i forget witch one it effects) will get damaged 

I dont want BC becouse I dont want to take meds every single day

After a few years I gave up

Now I need answers 

Its not just pain anymore, its the emotinal tole that my period has on my that I cant take

I have pain killers for the pain, but I dont have any medication for the emotional rolocoster that my period takes me on

Last month I sobed for a week straight none stop, I crashed out and had so meany brake downs I didnt even try to count

I can tell myself all I want that its my period makeing me feel and act that way and in a few days ill be ok but when im in it I dont see anything besided what im feeling its like emotinaly blacked out

There is no medication for this

Im aprehensive about going back to the doctors cus I dont want to hear the same thing 

And its not just the days on my period either, its the days before and after to

Im genualy scared of my period and when I feel it coming I get scared and my body almost preps for it

It also doesnt effect me, there are so meany times where I am doing life but I have to inconviense the people I love becouse I cant continue doing what ever we are doing, weather its becouse I need puke or im in so much pain I cant stand or my emotions are so crazy that im yelling at them one second and crying the next

I  am OVER it

And the thing is I dont even realy want kids so im going through all of this for no reason