New beginnings

Hey everyone! I just found this resource a couple of days ago. I’ve never been to therapy, never sought help in any way outside of confiding in select people. I’m trying to change it, but that change is harder than I thought. I have a chronic illness. I’m young but it’s impacting my life so much so that I just got fired from my job. Our family is struggling financially, everything is unstable. On top of that, I have undiagnosed issues relating to severe childhood trauma, relationship abuse, and so much more. My family convinced me that I was just fine and that it was all in my head. I have such deep rooted and damaged trust in people. My husband and everyone around me struggles to understand my mental struggles, understand that my chronic illness is real and that I’m in pain that is internal. You can look at me and I look like your average young woman, but I am in chronic pain and fatigue. I’m hoping to find myself again, to get the help I need, because I had been naive for too long believing that I could only get help from friends and family, when they’ve taken advantage of my giving nature, taking everything that I have and getting angry when there is none left.