Introduction

Hi my name is Lily. Next month will be one year that I am in a new position where I work. It started out stressful and extremely busy from the first day, but it was good because I thought everyone was understanding that I am inexperienced in this particular department. A few weeks ago I was informed that I am not where I should be in a year's time and that I will have to train harder on my own time to catch up. This threw me for a loop. I have had panic attacks and mini meltdowns at home over this. I am really afraid of losing my job. I am wearing myself out trying to read and learn every single minute of my own time, while trying to keep up with the work itself when I am there. I feel physically ill even thinking about when I have to go into work. I dread going in and freak out when I have to figure things out at work. I feel like I can't ask any questions or it will reflect poorly on me, but I really don't know this stuff well enough on my own. Meanwhile, I believe I have learned quite a good deal but just not enough I guess.