Where are ScreenNames 1-18?

I'll get to the point of the thread title, but I should introduce myself first.

Hey! I'm ScreenName19 and I'm 30 years old. I'm not good at talking to people but I totally want to be. I'm a stay-at-home mom with no friends. I have always had social anxiety, and it's hard to meet people. It's also hard to like people enough to want to hang out with them. (Not that I think very highly of myself.) It'd be cool to end up meeting a girl I get along with on this website, but I won't get my hopes up.

I was just going to make my screen name ScreenName, but that was taken, and so was 1-18. I want to know who are all of these other ScreenNames that checked number by number? They might be my people.