life

i have been having symptoms of severe ocd but no one believes me. i have felt really manipulative in my relationships and toxic. i dont mean to be, i just get really jealous but it always ends up ruining my relationships with other. i get really bad mood swings too and dont know how to control them. i also feel like i am bipolar and might have hpd. i feel like theres no one who will talk to me and understand. it gets to the point where idk how to deal with life bc it just feels like its falling apart. i am so insecure and i cant forget the negative things people say abt me. i feel lke my mind is really different too. i want to become a better person that more people will like and ive been researching so much on how to improve but i cant find out how.

~ amelia

(i love volleyball, running, school, criminal minds, talking, and reading)