Opening Up

This is a difficult decision, it's all new to me. Being vulnerable about my own trauma. Almost two years ago, I lost the love of my life, the mother of my son, my best friend. It was sudden and tragic. It barely sunk in within these last few weeks, the pain has been unbearable and overwhelming. I've never felt such intense emotions in my life and at times I feel so alone. Will the pain ever stop? Will I ever be happy again? I know she would want me to be but Idk how.