@straightforwardKite9459
You are not alone more people then many realize are estranged for various reasons....
at first the things that get to many is either hope that being estranged will make them think about things and change... that seldom happens they think it is a you problem...
OR you may come across the those who use guilt or the " family is everything" type reasoning to assure you everyone has issues but it is "family" like you should put up with mistreatment for that reason ... that made it lonely for me until i found my people, other estranged people.