Rejection and Inferiority in Social Hierarchy
Today something happened that reminded me of how there are people who hate my either for no reason or because im ugly even though i didn't do anything to them. Today i gave a livestream gift to a small live streamer with few viewers on *** i already gave a livestream gift to him in the past and he noticed me i had a different profile picture back then but earlier i changed my profile picture without the sun glass filter and i gave a live stream gift to him 3 times and he thanks the other people but not me and chose to intentionally ignore me. To be honest this is to me a rejection and hating for either no reason again as what happened with my bullies and haters in the past or hating me because im ugly and i am inferior in the human social hierarchy. This reminded me again of who i am as a person that im physically unnattractive and like what happened to my bullies and haters both online and in real life in the past hated me coz im ugly and they deem me lower and inferior than them not worth talking to or not worth noticing and the same kind of people who would laugh at me and mock and call me gay or ugly based on my outside appearance.
and it's also embarrassing because other viewers noticed that he chose to actively ignore me. Well i already unfollowed him
@affableBunny4004 its really sad and relatable to me. I do on daily basis face negative comments for my androgenous female face and because of this face of mine i get hated and made fun of and after facing all these comments i start to get irritated on daily basis and draining my energy. Its rare to stay unbothered by negative comments.