Trauma Sufferage The Opposite Way
What I am about to post...is sadly very true. People dont think I suffered trauma in the department of sexual abuse, because the trauma shows itself in the most dramatically opposite way possible. I dont avoid men, or women...i cater to them, i volunteer to be used, i want them to use me anyway they hope...and desire. Sex has since taken over my life and my romantic relationships.. and its lead me into more abuse and assaults since the initial event. And because of this, only 8 members of my family believe what happened and the rest support the pedophile that is my blood grandfather, or the creature as my mother calls him.
I was young when the light touches started, when they started getting sexual, I hadn't noticed because he has always shown me and my brother (who was then a little girl younger than myself) special attention. He would place his hands on our thighs and make jokes about our bodies.
This carried on for a while, when we were early teens, 14/12 we spent some nights at his house. This was after he had bought his toy, the titty grabber he called it. I woke up one morning with him rubbing me, in the downstairs region. And then...the next month, he had bought me a dildo to use at his place and told me to bring guys over....this started what seems to be an addiction to sexual pleasure