Processing sexual assault
I have been feeling like I want to share my story of my trauma with people close to me. There are some people in my life who I have shared certain things with, but not everything. The problem is, I feel like sharing this seems like I'm looking for attention. I'm not sure why I want to tell people or what I think I'll get out of it. I daydream about hypothetical conversations where I'm telling people what happened to me but that never actually happens. Out of the few people that I have shared my story with, only one person was supportive and didn't question me or attempt to blame me for what happened to me. I also don't know how I would bring it up in a conversation and I'm scared that if I tell someone, I'll start crying and I don't want to do that. So I just end up not saying anything and dealing with it by myself.
@Lunar06 Well from my experience, it tooks years to tell my family, ive never gone into detail, just never found the strentgh to do that, i shared as much as i could, but i think what you'll get out of it, is a little relief, it is a big burden to bare and you dont have to do it alone. As for the response you'll get thats something you cant predict comepletly, so i think its about calculated risk, you dont need any victim blaming so if thats what you think youll get from a person its best not to tell them, if there's someone you think that might be a bit more open minded, comforting and accepting maybe try approaching them about it. I know you dont want to seem like your looking for attention but at the end of the day i think something like this deserves a certain amount of attention, its been rough and all you ask is for someone to listen? Its not unreasonable.