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Hi! I'm feeling very boxed in trying to get justice. I was raped and assaulted by two different so-called men, different times, years ago. There may not be any proof left (I didn't remember until recently), they happen to be heavily connected, and lawyers won't help me out. It's so far costing me my family (my dad says I'm no better than ny attackers bc it took months after I remembered for me to speak up bc I was/am scared), nearly my relationship with my wonderful boyfriend, and quite frankly, my sanity. Also, if I do a rape test, would they say me being sexually active now erases evidence from then? I don't know how this all works. I do know that my boyfriend now is gentle and one of the others made me bl**d. So um....anyway....please help if you have any advice! I just want to save those who could or were next!

Also, how does the long term listener thing work? I accidentally erased that memo....

I'm really sorry if this is too much! I'm just really lost....