My story

I had a great childhood but then when I was 13 my mum passed away in a tragic accident, and I had 2 brothers. We were never close with my dad but that day he promised he would always take care of us, for a year I was responsible for everything in the house, plus my studies and my younger brother. I was also sexually and physically abused by my father, after this year passed he got married and my older brother started abusing me hitting me, calling me names, saying rumors about me. Anyway my father's wife she was good at first she got pregnant and I she didn't want to leave work so I stayed at her parents house to take care of my step brother who I love to death and it was time for college I really enjoyed my first year there, but I hated my step grandmother she always said hateful things to me, treating me badly when I even took care of her because she couldn't move. I started being negative in college and I discovered I have lung cancer I got medication and it was fine but I was so negative due to the drugs, after a while I waa cured but I didn't stop my drugs and it affected me badly, one day I couldn't take my step everything and left but ny father found me he took me home again, he started hitting me again, my brother got to my college friends spreading rumors about me saying I wasn't sick and I'm mentally sick and other terrible stuff of course they believed him and my reputation went to the ground and he also said same things to my father who stopped my studies temporarily as he says and now I have been home no going outside for 5 months, I have no friends anymore at all, I have a bad reputation. I actually thought of suicide a lot but then I have a lot that I want to achieve and I love myself, I just have a difficult life that I don't know how to get through it, but I have hope, I'm trying so hard not to break down and it's hard but I have to prove that no one can break me down. I'm here because I have been through a lot which I'm trying to escape and at the same time I can mostly relate to everything so I try to helo with what I call my life experience and trying to forget about what's happening around me in the mean time.

that's so much talking but I thought if I shared it, it might help someone. :)