My ex girlfriend ***Trigger Warning***

I was in a relationship with a girl for about a year and a half. At the time I didn't realize how abusive she was. She was mentally, physically, and sexually abusive.

When she got high or drunk she would text me and tell me that I was stuoud or that I sound cut deeper and just kill myself.

When she got mad she would take it out on me. She would get mad at me for having panic attacks and leave bruises and my arms.

More then once I had told her to stop during sex and she hadn't listened to me.

I stayed with her because I thought I loved her. But she hurt me. She hurt me so bad that now I struggle to have sexual contact with my boyfriend. I have had to ask him to go on a sex break because I cannot handle it right now. I am so lucky that he respects me.