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I was asulted at 8 y/o

Roecho September 15th

I never talked much about it, only three people in my life know about this and two of them are online, I struggled for years with sexuality and touching as I always felt ashamed of my own body to the point of not being able to look at it, I never knew why I was like this, I remember something happened, but I didn't know what.

One day, everything just came back, I remember him, I remembered the old abounded house, the small room and what happened, my reaction to this wasn't crying, it was just confusion, how the *** does nobody of my family know about this, it's not something to go so unnoticed, I even found a picture of that day that my dad took of me with the clothes I was asulted on and my face is just horrified even with my face smiling no way you can't sense something is off, I feel super disappointed and yeg glad that nobody knew, but it's a weigh always on my shoulder, my dreams has been disoriented since then, I remember the words he said, "Relax, don't be afraid, just wait" it repeats over and over in my head, and the shocking thing about it, is it wasn't my only assault 

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Apeatrice September 15th

@Roecho

Hi I'm dropping in to give you a hug (of thats accepted.) I'm sorry to hear all that has happened to you (it happened to me to at almost the same age...) You have been so brave and strong and resilient.

I'm so proud of you.

Recovery can take ages and a lot of pain. But we can do this. Help is available. 


ClaraRoseDreamer September 16th

@Roecho

I'm proud of you for opening up. I have a similar story and had blocked mine from my memory for a lot of years, but it slowly came back to me. I promise that working through it will be worth it. I am still on the journey to processing my abuse, and I'm slowly getting more confident in my body and around letting people close to me. A big thing I worked on in therapy was realising that the abuse was never my fault and that I had to be kind to the younger version of myself who went through so much for so many years. 

I am so sorry you have been through that abuse and I hope that you can now start to heal from what happened. You are not alone in this.