Is it concidered rape if it’s your husband and you never said no?

Hello all,

i have been married for 7 years and it started out good but over the years I have found he has been mentally, emotionally and verbally abusive. I no longer want to be intimate with him and we have been having those moment less and less thank God. I don’t want him to touch me or even be near me but he finds a way to. He will beg and beg until I finally give in to him. If I say no he gets angry. Each time I have started feeling dirtier and nearly end up in tears because I cannot explain how much I DONT want to do it. Is this rape? I never said no but I didn’t say yes either. I tried to leave him once but ended up back with him. I’m in the process of trying to leave again but he doesn’t know yet.