I'm so confused how to stop the pain
I feel so sick right now. So mentally drained and depressed. I'm trying to claw my way out, but all the abuse, sexual and otherwise. The mistrust, the death and destruction in my life is pushing me farther and farther down. I just want to be numb. I want to drink it all away. How can I come out?
@robingirl0706 Well done for being here and reaching out! There is a lot of support here and people that genuinely care for one another. You may not feel in a good place emotionally, but electronically you're in one of the best! 😉 I can relate to the desire you have for oblivion, the wish to get away from it all. I feel that sense more or less permanently at present, partly as I'm going through the process of reporting my abuse to the police, so that's forcing me to relive it. I don't have a magic wand 🧙♂️ unfortunately, but my own ways of numbing/distracting myself include journaling, watching TV, walking, working (my job is insanely busy!) and reading. I've also started drawing recently and really enjoy that. I'm not very good, but just like the way it makes me feel. I have a book called 'The boy, the mole, the fox and the horse' by Charlie Mackesey which is brilliant at making me smile even when I'm at some really low points. And I like listening to TED Talks like Brené Brown's The Power of Vulnerability (I watched it 4 times over the first time I came across it... Really affected me in a good way). Don't forget also the power of a good bath with smelly things to relax you. And above all, be ok with your progress being like climbing up a climbing wall. You can't get there all at once, but you are taking small steps upwards, and that's ok! Reach out if you want to talk - fingers crossed you start to have a better day of it tomorrow. 🤗 Grits