I'm not really sure if this is what I think it is
So recently I have started to remember this "friend" I used to have. I started remembering this around the time I lost my virginity with my girlfriend. I kept remembering these "hangouts" my actual friend, lets call her S, and I would have with this girl, lets call her K, who was 4 years our senior. We were around 9 at this time. S's mom made us have a sleepover with K after K got bullied by S's brother. We went over to K's house excited, since she was the older cooler girl. There it started off normal, watching movies, eating snacks. Then K would start to touch us and ask us if we wanted to pretend that we were having sex. She undressed us and would touch us inappropriatly. I haven't quite remembered all the details but I remember K would come over and this would be a weekly occurrance. I was wondering what you would call this. It wasn't consented, but we thought we would get in trouble if we told. Should I talk about this with my therapist? I'm scared.
Hi there! Is this something that still negatively effects you? Is intimacy difficult for you? If yes to either of these than I would suggest seeking a therapist to help you deal with the residual trauma you're feeling.
More immediately though, is this person still in your life? Are you still in your teens? If so, let an adult that you trust know immediately of what you're feeling and what happened to you.