I can't anymore
The fact that 6 years later he still has power over me, coming in my life, controlling what I do and say. The fact that he can still make me feel guilty and ashamed and like I need to die because he said that everyone would be better off without me and his girlfriend told me to kill myself everyday for 4 years. I hate it that I cut last night because of him. I hate him. I can't do this anymore
@Haylens I am really sorry to hear things are feeling so bad for you that you felt the need to hurt yourself in order to try and cope with the feelings that have been going on for you. What happened to you was not your fault and you have nothing to feel ashamed about. The person who hurt you is the one who is responsible for what happened to you. I know it may feel right now as though your abuser has the power and perhaps is winning but it is possible with support and help to get to a place where you can place the responsibility and blame where it firmly belongs - with the abuser. Please know there are people here who would be only too willing to chat with you if you need some extra support right now. Please dont feel alone. I wonder what support you have in place to help you deal with all of this and whether anyone else knows how bad your feeling?
@dancingRainbow45 I have no support whatsoever. My mom thinks it's my fault, asked what I was wearing, what I did, and if I enjoyed it. I'm alone.
