Horrible Life
I was molested by my brother from age 4 to 27. I haven't really seen him in the last 2 years so it could be more! My mother is narcissistic, suffers from chronic pain and has dementia. I have had as many addresses as years in my life. Change is what is normal to me, and I feel lucky for that. My life has been chaotic!
You've survived so much, and proved that we can endure the worst. I hope that through it all you find a place of rest, recovery, and healing.
I came to these page feeling so Sad about life and reading these makes me think my problem is nothing compares to yours .. 😢
Nothing I or anyone else can say can make this any easier to live with, but you already know that.
In all of this the question I imagine you must be asking is "Where is the meaning"?
As @EmptheticDude already said you have proven you can endure,what I imagine will be among the worst experiences of your life. You have survived and that is a triumph.
I believe that even in great darkness there is always hope and that with the right help, you can even make something good come from all this. Please don't feel you need to go through this alone. I know many people would be more than happy to listen any time you just need to talk.
Sorry for the misspelling @EmpatheticDude
I actually am grateful for my life as it is. To me, the meaning of life is to make the best of it. It isn't always easy, and often it is hard, but at the end of the day I am happy to be aware of all the shallow and deep breaths I have breathed, and to wake up the next day conquering suffocation once again.