Hi

When I was 9 yr old me and my brother who was 4 years older than me started touching each other.. I know we were kids.. I was feeling the *** and I got addicted to that feeling it continued till I was maybe 14 years.. Now I'm 26 I'm addicted to porn and I've anxiety of the idea of anyone finding out.. I'm in a strict society where talking about sex is not allowed.. I can't talk to my parents about what happened to me.. I can't blame my brother because we were just kids.. But I can't simply live a normal life and find love.. I didn't enter any relationship and I always feel low self-esteem.. I don't know what to do