trauma?

I have ADHD, which I feel fed into a lot of what I went through/currently am going through.

I'm 14 years old. Growing up, I had anger issues, same with my dad. I have memories from my childhood of fights with my parents where they hurt me. One of these instances left a scar.

I had horrible sleeping problems, still do. And one of the ways they dealt with it was by locking me, a 6-year-old, in my room. The only reason they stopped was because I damaged the door with a chair when they refused to listen to my screaming.

There's so much shit that I barely remember a lot of it.

I'm still currently being emotionally abused. They don't care about my mental health, only my grades. They think I'm faking self harm and being depressed. I'm transgender, and they constantly yell at me about it because they think "it's a trend and I only feel that way because my friends feel that way"

My dad's anger issues are horrible. I'm scared of him. He's driven me to the point of panic attacks, and then said I was faking it.

My mom is a horrible human and I hate her so much.

I'm attached to both of my parents and I couldn't bear losing either of them, despite what they've put me through.

This is kind of random and all over the place. I'm so done with this all.