To be or not To be...
Are we our trauma? Is there a way of completely separating ourselves from the intense coil that has infected and implanted itself within our body, mind, and soul? What constitutes complete healing? What does it mean when we search for inner peace? What does it mean to be whole?
-Just several questions I have come to run into and hit my face against. Almost like hitting a brick wall. I remember reading a book and recalling a mentor I had in college who said the brick walls we run into in life are good things. Good things, because those are the moments that will determine whether or not you are worthy enough to get to the other side. This is where you see who is made of what. The other side is not for everyone. Does that mean healing, peace, clarity and sanity of mind, wholeness- those are things that only reveal themselves if we get over the brick wall?
Is it for everyone...
"Nothing happens to any man that he is not formed by nature to bear." -Marcus Aurelius
"God won't give you more than you can handle" -Folk 'round you
I'm not sure how I feel about the perspective behind these quotes. A part of me is complimented and a part of me feels like the trauma fell on the wrong house. Meaning- I don't believe I am strong enough to handle this. I handle it because I have to. I learn as I go. I cope as I go. I heal as I go. I don't have a manual for this. I don't know if there is any book that I've read that gave me all the answers. Maybe motivational pieces.
There is no cookie cutter way to handle trauma, at that handle it appropriately.
Have you ever wondered how someone else would have responded if they've endured trauma like yours?
Do you believe you were born with a certain temperament that allowed you to "bear" the things we go through? Specifically the trauma.
Just thoughts... Lingering thoughts.
@electricEagle82
Wow interesting questions here.. I think everyone survives through there traumas in a different and unique way.. I personally survived I think by partially believing the lies and telling myself that it was normal.. Keeping the caring side of me allowed me to believe their might be a light if I could get out. I also looked after and cared for those younger than me and it has helped me just be more passionate about caring for others.. I don't believe in comparing my trauma to others because everyone has suffered in different ways and everyone experiences are unique to them.. I dislike seeing people suffer in anyway at all. Sending out big hugs to everyone who wants them. 
@electricEagle82
Your posts resonate so well with me.. I believe you are strong though