The million dollar question
I know the ship has sailed on us. We are on two different planets. I can see it in him he no longer cares for this relationship and I can put money on it that he'd already replaced me. On some days I can see he don't want me around so he'll pick a fight so he can leave or *** kick me out this usually happens when pay day rolls around. I've left him a few times but end up coming back. I don't get it, I'm not stupid I know what he does is wrong I know it's not healthy for me I completely understand that he's 100% toxic for me so why do I f****stay? I'm not afraid to be alone I've gotten used to being alone I know I have the capability to leave but why don't I have the balls to stay gone? I promised my self that this year was finally gonna be the year of me leaving him getting my own place getting self respect back and finding me again. And dealing with his bull sh**. But still here begin treated like a nobody spoken to or acknowledged when he needs something or someone to blame to justify his actions. Why does my *** stay???
@cuckoocachoo82
Sometimes we get so attached to someone without realizing, but you can try no contact for a month, or find something else try and occupy you, so you don’t feel that attachment to run back to him. There might also be something underlying that cause you to be this attached. I hope you are able to find the strength and leave him soon(:
@cuckoocachoo82
Change is hard and so is the unknown ......... leaving really leaving makes it real ....... who gets what in the split ....money issues ..... where will you live.......i procrastinate because i do not want to
starting over is hard many couple friends disappear then there is starting over with dating again and want do you see your future as...... i should have left ...... i want to but i do not want to make the hard choices ....... with where to live/ do I make enough income or what will my life look like.
Thank u all for the support it's good hear vs judgement like I usually do: well u went back, u choose to stay, suck it up stop bitchin u keep going back. No one undstands what I'm going through. Lately I've been trying to understand and wrap my head around truma bond cause hands down I believe I'm suffering from it. Is there a pill for it so I can tell my therapist to prescribe me that pill? But thank u again for hearing me out
