TW/ I just want things to be over already

Well to start off, I honestly thought I'd be okay sooner but somehow I'm still here healing and trying to move on from it. It all started last year, as the pandemic came around in a way. I hadnt really been social without the pandemic itself so I thought it was cool to recieve message from a guy I knew from school. He seemed nice and stuff but dont let that fool you. As well as his ex texted me claiming she had a crush on me and tries to ruin my life. She harassed me verbally well in text because we all know she wouldnt show her face. Especially after the anger shes caused me. Anyways I started to meet up with the guy in public places. It was nice for a while yes. But as the months went by, he began to become really abusive. If I said a username for an account he has he would grab my neck and try choking me repeatedly. That was painful. As well as verbally telling g me that my sweater behaved better than I did. What's that supposed to mean? And he would just hit me and use me. Lead me on falsely while he was going after another girl either way. What a jerk! Sometimes I wish I could strangle him. But the point is he was abusive in so many ways. Not just physically and verbally. It hurts and I regret meeting that dude amd having to deal with his psycho ex girlfriend (again why me..) and so on so I'm here to be healing