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THE HEALING ERA

lilmissjaded October 18th, 2022

hoping to create a space for myself and others to just get everything out.


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lilmissjaded OP October 18th, 2022

my mind races 24/7. How can I turn it off?

I listen to music to distract my mind, but it never helps.

so here I am. A place to get my feelings out there and out of my head.


truth is I’m struggling, and it’s starting to really affect everything.

im spiraling.

i’m slowly losing myself, I just can’t live like this.


a constant feeling of fear, anxiety, fight or flight, feeling like a have to have a wall up.


i just feel like a shell of my past self. SCREAMING to be free.

I control myself now. Not him.

lilmissjaded OP October 18th, 2022

why do I feel I need saved by someone else?


why can’t I save myself?


why can’t I dig myself out of this pit?

lilmissjaded OP October 19th, 2022

another day of not being able to move.

I feel numb.


if I do get up? What would I do?


I was told to take walks, but I can’t find myself the willpower to get out of bed.

to brush my hair.

to brush my teeth.

to put on clothes.


I hate feeling like I’m letting myself go. I hate feeling this pathetic

lilmissjaded OP October 20th, 2022

I keep looping back to the fact I feel I need someone to save me.

after all, I was the one who escaped. Who risked everything to flee.

the fear of being found, I still escaped.

the fear of being killed, I still escaped.

the fear of my loved ones being killed, I still escaped.


yet here I am unable to save myself from this pit of depression.

Do I want saved? Do I want to return to the real world?

my safe bubble is so much better honestly.