Sexually Abused by older boy
so a couple months back I was sexually abused by a boy who was 2 years older than me and he was WAY taller than me and he I had no privacy, he touched, felt, saw, etc everything that was a part of me. It went on for 2 months and I couldn't do anything to stop it. I felt helpless. I started cutting myself, burning myself, attempting suicide because it got too much for me. I hated myself. I cried myself to sleep every night. I developed an eating disorder and refused to eat anything and when I did eat I threw up. He finally stopped but I still feel horrible and I feel responsible and helpless. I feel so alone and worthless. If I didn't wear a baggy hoodie everyday maybe it wouldn't have happened. Maybe. I really don't know.
I was in a similar situation. I was assaulted when I was 14. It's a awful thing that happens to people. I went 20 years without reporting it. If I could go back and and change that I would. Blaming yourself, second guessing is normal. I felt the same way. I would encourage to find someone you trust, and get some help to work thru it. No matter what....this isn't your fault. You did nothing wrong. He's the one to blame. You're not alone in this. It will get better. You can get thru this. It may not seem like it now, but you can do this. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Xoxo
