Raped and abused.
Hi. I'm Rosie. I'm 14 years old and for the last two years I was raped and abused by my "boyfriend". He blackmailed me into doing things I really didn't want to do and he would hit me if I complained at all. He got me pregnant twice and I have a beautiful daughter named Cadence. Most of the time I feel inferior and hurt and ashamed, guilty etc. I think of these things in the most random times and I feel like I don't belong with others. Like I'm not good enough for them. Please help me. I want to move on.
Hi Rosie, I am so sorry to hear about this terrible tragedy that happened to you! Remember that you are never to blame and that you were a victim in this case. Have you considered seeking therapy or have you seen a psychologist? There are some great forums on here on sexual assault and there is a free training guide on traumatic experiences too. I would recommend writing in a journal, exercising, joining a support group and talking about your feelings/emotions to let them all out and begin to heal and move forward for the sake of yourself and your child. But please remember it is ok to be sad, grieve, cry, be mad...never feel ashamed of your emotions even if it was a long time ago, these things are extremely hard to get through but its possible x
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What an awful experience you have gone through. Well done for being here and reaching out for help, you are very brave. I too strongly suggest you reach out for professional help, it's important you do sooner or later.