Rape
i was raped 13 years ago, i carried all the blame and feeling of guilt,. at first i beleived it was my fault, till i started to read and realize it's a normal feeling after rape and it's not correct though
he simply ruined my life, i got sick after that with psychological disturbances, i started to fail at school, i lost my love... my life changed 360 degrees
i used to be this type A personality, very successful at school, in the medical school, everything was going so right
now, am not hurt, i got over it, i got therapy, i forgive myself, but somehow i blame him for all the consequences i am still carrying up till now,,
and i wonder why after 13 years i still remember that every now and then!!!
@mindtalk you are strong, and not the blame. He hurt you and he didnt had the right to touch you in any way. The reason you think about it is because we cant make it go away, your mind is like a big closet with for every memory its own place. think about friends, family, school ect. but for a trauma there isnt a place so you have to create one, with therapy.. if we wont do this... every time we think about something the trauma memories fall out because if you place something random in a closet it falls out right? thats why talking is so important. it makes you stronger <3 hugs
@Kyoshi thank you... Somehow i only read it now. And your comment makes a difference. I am almost recovered now. Thx again
