My trauma? Idk

I'd prefer to die lovely diary...pain pain pain everywhere there is pain. May this be something I won't do but who knows

I feel lonely and I'm crying

I know what i did was wrong

so I keep dying..

I'm dying from this pain, knowing that I'm unwanted here

just like the day i wanted to run like there was nothing near.

I thought i could stay strong but I'm so weak

that everyday is almost worse.

I apologized so many times, still feel like everyone hates me. I guess I deserve this pain. I wish nothing had happened but everything is gone and I'm all alone.

Hi . I am new here . I just read this conversation and for first time i relise that people with lots of traumas (as I am) want to talk about that, like they (we) are trying to get answers..

😞😞😞😞😞😞 I always mess up things ugh

HOW MUCH TRAUMA DO I STILL NEED TO DEAL WITH??

WHY IM THE ONE ALWAYS THAT NEEDS GO THROUGH THAT WHY??????

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT :(

I havent posted in here for such a long time...

I feel so lonely and i really do think nobody cares...I guess people that were here for me will leave me or have already left me. I'm sorry for what i did to you, i never meant to hurt you. I know you wish i was dead or to be in so much more pain and i understand that. I'm hurting and its okay because i have used to it. Maybe i should get over it but its kinda hard. I know its my fault and i know things will never be the same. I'm really sorry and i know things wont get fixed... I wish i could do much more but I'm too useless and bc i punish myself oftenly there are stuff im not allowed to do. You can hurt me and call me names if thats what you want, you can hate me also.