My story

Hey this isn't something I really do to be honest I'm writing this for myself, I served 5 years in the military I got discharged recently and the first 3 years were fine nothing I didn't expect then I was put down as squad leader and starting leading one of the 'elite' teams and after that each mission we were given seemed more questionable then the one that pushed me over the edge. It was labeled as a 'high risk' mission which I knew very well means suicide mission and it went south I lost quite a few of my squad I barely made it out I did get injured but nothing that was two bad compared to everything, I find it funny soldiers are labeled as heros but trust me we aren't we just shoot where the commander points and the commander only cared about one thing when we got to camp the only thing he asked was if we completed the mission that's when I knew I was out of this I'm not being involved anymore. Since I've been home I've been isolating myself in my apartment and haunted by the things we did. sorry like I said I don't do this at all never but I need to do this for me.